Monday, June 8, 2009

2 years of blogging

It's been a long trip.

Just about two years ago I started this blog and tried hard to use it to capture memories of my beloved Jim. The special things that was no one elses. The quirk of an eyebrow, the twinkle in the eye, the jokes, the personality of the man. I wanted to keep the memory alive, so that he would be still alive, even in his death. Photos and stories that were told. Dreams we had that were reached and the ones that from his being gone, are not possible anymore. My inside was a shell filled with pain and the healing that has come was in the sharing.

The missing of Jim is still with me. Each day, with each breathe, but and there is that big old but. But I am finding that I can breathe without him. It hurts, and I don't want to be able to, but I can. I am.

It was two years ago that I started blogging. And I thank everyone that has read my blogs and journeyed with me. Thank you for sharing the journey that is Jim. A man that was very special in this world of mine.

The posts have gotten much spottier because work has been cranked up and taken my energy. Mercury's illness is pulling energy out of me in a different way. I want to take some time and read what I have written and make notes - I am thinking that as I read, more memories will be triggered and more things will not be forgotten. The journey is not done, but it is pulling over to the side of the road for a moment.


Sharon said...

Betsy, it has been a distinct pleasure to be able to share your memories...and watch your growth through the past two years. Kudos for the way you are handling the pressures and trials of life with work, Mercury, and know that we will continue to support you through this time...blessings on your week,

Rach said...

We'll certainly miss you while you are gone and I truly hope you will return. Jim was an incredible man and I've been blessed to get to know him through one who loved him so completely.

Big HUGS to you as Mercury's health continues to decline and work continues its demands.

Betts4 said...

Thank you for the kind words. I will definately be blogging again. It is an addiction. I have always loved writing so having this as an outlet has been a way of relief.

Lynnbug said...

I know you started blogging to help yourself get through your grief and to share memories of Jim. I came into your blog late, but I cant tell you how much reading you has helped ME. Your spirit, your drive and your love for Jim has touched my heart! I cant wait for you to come back.