Just 24 hours

I am jumping on to give a quick update. I will be coming back later to edit this.

Basically it comes down to two more strokes, one major and one minor. The minor one falls over where the minor one hit last week, which makes it more than minor, but not as bad as the major one on the right side that blew his left side of his body from any mobility.

He can't talk, can't really open eyes and can sometimes squeeze a hand when we talk to him. He recognizes the Male voices -deep and louder then the women, but last night he did ask for water when I was talking to him. He is a dnr and is on just comfortable and quiet. No IV's no food, just some water and morphine. He will pass peacefully. At least I hope it's peaceful. They are saying with the amount of blood built up in the brain, it could be tonight or tomorrow, but not much longer.

I am not sure what I am doing home except that there was not much more to do at the hospital. I need to get some sleep and will be going back out tonight or tomorrow morning depending. There were issues with stepsisters and kids and noise and the party atmosphere but I did get several times of quiet time wiht my dad. To talk to him, to let him hear my voice and to touch. He could pass in ten minutes or three days. Not much longer than that.

The last few years I had with my dad were special because we were able to get past anger of very past events and do some talking and bonding. With Jim gone and Dad gone I am not sure what I will be doing. Going crazy is all I can think.