Thursday, April 10, 2008

warm air

This is sort of just a hit and run. It was a beautiful day - mid 60's, sun was out and a warm breeze. I had my traditional first spring dinner out in the yard tonight. Took a book, turned on the tunes and has a sandwich while the dogs watched from beyond the patio. They would be in my lap if I let them.

Opening the windows and letting the warm air in to freshen up the house is nice. Hearing all the neigbhors and goings ons reminds me of Rear Window with Jimmy Stewart. I can tell you who lives across the alley and what they had for dinner.

I can't quite explain the feelings that I get hit with, except being home, and alone, really sucks. I think I am finally getting used to it. And then, bam. So maybe the time I am feeling used to it will stretch, but after having someone to turn to for so many years, not having someone is a tough act. There are things that I am just too tired to do and would have Jim to help with. To act together in getting done. I know I will get past it, but god, I sure miss him.


Laura said...

Hugs, and more hugs. I wish the weather would warm up here. We did get a couple of days but I am greedy. Email your addy and I will send out one of those balls to you. No charge. I've got bags and bags of rubber bands in all the colors of the rainbow.

Rach said...

We had beautiful weather as well. Lily wanted to picnic outside this evening, so she did. :o)

I can't imagine what you must be feeling, but I can certainly sympathize. I'm so sorry for the loneliness and big HUGS!

Linda said...

Boy, the weather sounds wonderful! It still gets so cold here in Oregon when the sun goes down. I'm longing for the days when I can open the windows and let the fresh air in.
I'm sorry about the loneliness-from this far away, I am sending you a big,bug hug!