Definately one of those days

It was definately one of those days. If there was any emotion on the board that I didn't hit, I don't know what it was. Emotions in ( ) see below.

Starting out, I was at work and actually a bit eager to do the duties I had lined up for the day. I was cranking things out and all was well. (happy) Went to lunch, it was okay but then I came back to work and found that it was just one week till christmas. I hadn't quite thought about that. Somewhere in the back of my head I realized that the present from my secret santa, one from a friend and one from my sister were all I would have to open - that would be surprises. The others are things that I have gifted to myself, from Jim thru me. (sad) This thought made me cringe and want to make everything stop. I was upset enough to start crying and have to go to the ladies room for a bit.

I posted on my favorite message board this feeling and got a lot of support and warm feelings. It helps a lot to know you are not alone. (smile)

I came back and settled into the mundane chore of putting stamps on the 'please donate to us' postcards that we are sending out. (bored) I was chugging away at this and listening to some mellow classical music. My boss steps in and says that there was a decision by the board, (fear) (here I got scared thinking that's it, I'm fired...but no) he says because of the wonderful work we have done, to give each employee a year end bonus. (shock) I told him thank you and wow. I think he enjoyed the telling of us.

So I am happy now (happy) and I go to print some copies up. The paper jams. I pull one jammed up sheet out and it still is saying that it is jammed somewhere. I can't figure it out. (frustration) I call the help number and the csr walks me thru a couple things to check. As I am pushing on the green lever she told me to push on....CRACK a piece of plastic goes flying and the thing falls off into my hands. (oh my god). I tell the csr to send someone out tomorrow morning. We have 2000 copies to make and only about half are done.

I go and tell my boss I think I just blew my bonus. He looks at it and was remarkably calm. Asked if I had called them and I explained I was on the phone with them when it happened. He said okay. That is it. (relief)

I go back to sticking stamps on the postcards and trying to calm down. In a bit I go grab a bus and come home. I have a letter from a good friend of Jim's who wrote to give me support during the holidays. I cried reading that and I read it out loud to Jim. (sorrow) Stirring the crockpot that has my speghetti sauce for dinner makes me happy again. It tastes good! The dogs want to play so I give them a new dog toy and they go at it. Taking some pictures gets me laughing and singing 'My Favorite Things' from the Singing Nun. I started singing loud and improvising lines. (nutso)

I am not sure what the evening will hold, but it can only be more of a roller coaster ride!!!