Friday, June 29, 2007

On 5/29 at 3:35am Life Changed.

I will wear black today. In honor of Jim.

I wrote a blog a couple days ago about the last tuesday of the month being the day of death. However Jim's actual date on the death certificate (that's hell of a thing to write) is 5/29 at 3:35am. So in three hours, it will be the actual one month anniversary.

In this picture Jim on a mountain we climbed in Massachussetts. You could almost see all the way to Boston. A beautiful fall New England day. Jim is there at the top of the world, and looking forward - as he always did.

My friend Don said in a comment "Sorrow shared is sorrow lessened." You, my friends have been sharing my sorrow and my love for Jim, and believe me it has helped. I have found the writing and posting of photos and sharing of stories - both the sad and the happy - to be helpful in this journey that I travel.

The pain of the loss of Jim comes, and it comes in a wave that is unstoppable. It comes in a wave that just makes the heart beat faster, the teeth clench and my hair sweat. However, to counter that, I am thinking more clearly (sometimes) and trying to go slowly step by step. Jim would have wanted that.


Ginger D said...

When you are sorrowful look into your heart and you shall see that you are weeping for that which has been your delight. Kahill Gibran

Jack B. Nimble said...

You are someone who understands. I hope you'll post again, soon.