Monday, January 28, 2008

8 months

I am sorry for the non post tonight. I came home from work at about 2 in the afternoon. This was after lunch and in a pretty important meeting. I got up from the meeting and puked for about 5 minutes in the bathroom. It was pretty bad.

My boss sent me home and I went to bed. Some time later I woke up and vomited some more. Then started the diahearra. All afternoon. I slept and got up for the bathroom run about every 45 minutes or so.

About 7 pm I got up and had some water, ginger ale and a couple crackers. Watched The Time Machine - the 1960 version that has Rod Taylor in it. Slept thru some of it and had Tigger and Merc on the couch with me.

Eight Months ago, Jim died.

I am crawling to bed and going to try not to cry. It is just a half hour from now the we took Jim to the hospital. And just 3 1/2 hours from now that he died.

I don't know if I will be posting tomorrow. I think it will be a quiet day.

Jim, I miss you. I love you. I will always wish I rode in the back of the ambulance with you. I will always remember the last day we spent together. In the sun, on the road, visiting stores and watching the movie at the Rotunda. That was a special day, I am only sorry it was our last one.

I think/remember/touch you in all kinds of ways, all thru the day. You are a special man and the 17 1/2 years you gave me were the best of my life. I love you Honey bunny.


GD said...

Butch told me I was the best thing that ever happened to him, too, like Jim said to you. Validation from a trusted loved one is so important and that has stayed with me throughout the past 30 years. I have always thought I could be from another planet, because I'm different from most people. And I've always liked myself, too, but had hoped some else could see who I was and truly love me. He did, we did and it fuels me to this very day. The power of love is everlasting!

rachd said...

I'm sending up a special prayer for you today. The passage of time is so difficult. Be gentle with yourself today, Betsy.

Many HUGS and prayers.

Donna said...

My heart, love and prayers are with you sweetie!

Laurie said...

Praying for you today Betsy and hope that you are gentle on yourself. It must be so difficult to realize the significance of the day and I hope you will be feeling better soon.

Hugs and Love to you,

Sonya said...

Hi Betsy,

Just wanted to let you know I was thinking about you today.


Laura said...

Betsy, I'll cry with you. And it will be okay that we are crying. Because this is tough, and you shouldn't have to do it, much less do it alone. In my thoughts every day.

Laurie said...

Checking in to say Hi and I am praying for you. It's Friday and I hope your weekend is full of peace and rest. Sending ((HUGS)) to you.

Love, Laurie in Ca.