Monday, December 3, 2007

Waking up

I woke up this morning with Jim's arm around me.

I could feel the weight. Not of the blanket around me, but rather a heavy solid thing. It was positioned just like he did in the mornings and we would wake and I would reposition it so it wasn't right on my chest. This morning I could feel it clearly...or as clearly as you can in that half awake state. I woke thinking it was his arm. I woke some more thinking it couldn't be and then woke enough to say "it feels good, I will leave it be" and went back to sleep. All I can say is that the weight I felt was definately not just a blanket and it was in the exact position that Jim would leave his arm when we snuggled.

Maybe it was, maybe it wasn't. But I am going with the thought that he was around and giving me some comfort for the holidays. It works for me.

4 comments:

Gayle said...

Just reading that makes me cry and wish it could happen to me! I would definitely take that as a sign from your husband that he is still with you.

rachd said...

Let's just say it was Jim coming to let you know he is still with you.

What a beautiful thing to have happen. :o)

SJW said...

Of course it was him :)

What a nice thought- in that bizarre and twisted way that grief makes us think.

Heres wishing all us widows some peace this holiday season.

betts4 said...

I go to sleep each night telling myself "dream about jim". Sometimes I do, sometimes it is a morning like this one.
Hugs to all you!!!