Saturday, December 22, 2007

lights

Grinches and Santas and Virgins and Snowmen. Went out to see christmas lights with some friends. It was interesting to see the pretty lights, bright decorations and some very tacky explosions of a media driven holiday.

I took some pictures of the area known as the miracle on 34th street. One street that goes full out to decorate each and every house to the all time maximum it can be decorated. Pictures to follow. I took some pics with my cellphone, so I will download them tomorrow.

For the most part things inside me are okay, but then reality hits - no Jim. And it hurts and that is about all I can say. I have gone from just a week ago of having nothing planned to do and now having something planned for each day till after Christmas. Just knowing that helps and gives me something to look forward to. I find myself getting depressed and vapid and with no motivation to do anything without something planned and to get ready for. I hope that if there are others in my situation reading this, please take a moment and try to organize something to do each day and be around some friends.

4 comments:

Laurie said...

Hi Betsy,

I am so glad to know that you have your days planned through Christmas. I don't have to worry about you being alone, even though a person can feel this way even in a crowd. The gift of your presence with others will be such a blessing for them, and you too. Yes, it will be different without Jim being with you, but his memory lives on in each person you will be with. I hope your heart overflows with love this Christmas from all who love you so much. You are getting through and I admire you so much for getting out there and doing it inspite of yourself:) It is not easy but you are proving that it is doable. If I could reach you, I'd give you one of my tight and never let go ((HUGS) but a cyber one will have to do. Just be yourself and let the healing continue. I love you and Merry Christmas Friend.

Love, Laurie in Ca.

suedaz said...

I too have plans, and that makes all the difference, doesn't it?
Widowhood is a tough walk on any regular day, but to heap holidays upon us too-that's just cruel and unusual punishment!
Wishing you peace, this week and next.

rachd said...

Hi Betsy,

I just wanted to drop you a quick line to let you know I've been thinking about you. I know tomorrow is going to be difficult and I wanted to let you know my thoughts and prayers are with you.

Laurie is a smart woman--I second what she has written.

Good luck, my friend, and God bless you this Christmas. Know there are many of us thinking of you and Jim. Many many HUGS! :o)

Rachael

Laurie said...

Merry Christmas Betsy,

I hope that your absence here means you are having a wonderful time there. May you be loved on all over the place and know you are special.
I know Jim will be there with you in spirit and your heart. I am so thankful you are with family. Have a most blessed time.

Love, Laurie